this is me...imperfect

on this blog i tend not to capitalize things. i know it really upsets some people, but this is my rant blog. this is the trials and tribulations (i.e. randomness) of my life, and so this is the only place i get to be lazy about something...i'm not perfect, please bear with me.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

2011 will be my year. i'm goin to take risks and go big. i need to have a chance to be and do what i've dreamed about since i could walk and talk. i'm terrified, but i've learned if you are really scared then it must be important to you so go for it.

wish me luck.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

its 12:20am in China

A Cup of tea a morning of perusing the fashion blogs. I think my day is starting off pretty well.

Lesson:
Look fierce. Turn heads. 

Man so I've been trying to find time to start up my videoblog theinbetweenlife.blogspot.com but man is it hard. it's scary knowing everything you say and feel will be judged, but i guess I just have start. 

 I've been super busy. have been working on my fashion line.  I don't think I'll ever try to get it sold. t's more just a thing for me you know?  But its fun. I'm halfway done with a fall jacket. It's plaid with strong lines set a bit asymmetrical. Hopefully it turns out great.  Anyone know an easier way to post pics? I'm having a hell of a time having them show up where I want them too. haha...



inspiration

Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure...than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.

Theodore Roosevelt

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

…Spilt Milk…

Tears are always spilling over unbroken seals
Take the blame
Feel the fear of your endless shame
Thoughts that things might never change
And once again the voices in your head
Those words stating, “what’s the point”
It’s a hole unable to be filled
Dug deep with pessimism
And never buried
Open trenches with piles of dirt
And I just want to sleep head to chest
A heart beating stronger than mine ever will
My vice
To be saved by someone I could love

06.04.08

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

gentle now

my co worker excited about a photoshop file he had created for a new DVD we are working on said, about a flickering line:

"I'm not sure what is going wrong. I even stroked it to give it extra thickness."


....enough said.


XO,

e.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Stripped Bare

So only at my job...

Last night as a going away party for a fellow co-worker, that I hardly knew, the company went out to Rock Bottom Brewery in Minneapolis to take part in some rambunctious fun. You know a few beers hugs and goodbyes. Well not quite how it worked out.

The night started there and it was great. I walked up to the bar with E, L, and J. It was a fun time walking from work into the city was maybe 7 blocks, but I found out a great deal about how men view women, basically if it has breasts....I'll say no more.

When we finally got to the bar I was convinced to buy an amber beer - Eric the Red - which is damn good. I do like amber's so I was happy to find the brewery had made a decent one. I played some pool, took a bunch of great photos, ordered a Chipotle Quesadilla, and joked around it was great, even though one beer had me so tipsy it was ridiculous. The big honchos arrived and we had a shot to say goodbye to Ryan, Washington Apple (delicious), and grabbed another beer from the waitress. Here is the best part....the bosses/owners of our company picked up the tab. So the joking went on and one, and we found one of the women at the company had a hook up at Seville's a strip club, and so everyone was like, "Let's go, come on." I got into it and laughed like, "okay, why not?" Which was funny for me since I've always wanted to go, but just have never gotten the chance.

I know, I know, but who goes with coworkers? APPARENTLY MY COMPANY, because about 15 of us went and since S knew the guy that part owned the club we all got in free. It started out as odd, because, uh hello naked ladies everywhere. Well Ryan and I had gotten really buddy buddy during the night, I had never really gotten the chance to know him, and it sucks because I found out he'd be someone I'd hang out with outside of work. Oh well. So as him and I were walking we flirted and joked around with each other. How funny. OH AND on the way there some kid I was high five-ing in the street was like 'HEY I KNOW YOU! I went to high school with you. Ben Russo." Just as I realized who it was Ryan ran up put his arms around me and went "She's taken!!" haha I just died laughing, because I actually did know the kid. haha I have a wicked huge crush on Ryan. He was one of the first guys I met that I was like DAMN! Of course he's in a relationship. *yawn* I'm like the only one at my place of work that is single. UGH!

Anyway back to the strip club, so we're there buying drinks having fun when the big honcho (our boss) comes up and points to five of us including me then brings this gorgeous girl over and is like "I bought you all a dance." I just about died with nervous laughter, but of course I kind of wanted one. I mean a beautiful girl. Why not? Not saying I'm lesbian or bi or straight I'm saying shit she was HOT. If it makes you happy have fun! haha

So Lewis said to me earlier in the night: "Ryan's favorite color is stripper." That was great, and I found so true. Another girl came over after Nikki (who asked if she could be by first gf. haha I said yes then she disappeared *shrug*) and the new girl kept giving Ryan dances over and over. I didn't think she had a cute face, but her bod was banging. Ryan said he was in love and she kept dancing on me as well saying: "Wow you are the first girl I've met that is really okay with strippers and will go out with the guys have fun and not pass judgment and not be all awkward." All I was thinking how can I be awkward you are the one who's naked. So I kept asking my friend Tizzle for one's because he had taken out 70 dollars in ones. So I kept tipping her, but she's like I can't take it you have to put it on me, so I put it in her top haha. Tizzle thought it was hot so he kept giving me money to give to the strippers on stage and asked the girl Ryan loved to slap my ass.

Sorry, but this was all so hilarious to me I couldn't stop laughing, and my bosses were in the back watching everything. Funny thing is there was no odd tension. So rocking.

Anyway in the morning, I gave myself a free pass and came to work 1/2 hour late, I mean why not, if it wasn't for them I would have been home at 7pm. haha

Gotta love my life...

XO

e.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008


So today at work I got to take a Beta SP outside & throw it at a brick wall until it was destroyed. That was some serious fun. I flew the metallic tape around like a kite, made someone a tie, me this awesome headband, and my coworker, eric, and I wrapped our bosses car with it. haha. how i love my job ;-)