Ouch it bit me...

the fashion bug...been there since I was a kid, but lately its taken over. Everything I do during my day consists of looking at clothes, shoes, and purses. Oh yeah and now I'm an accessories whore who has bought more jewelry in the last month and any normal human should be allowed. It's probably because of my latest of obsession tFS I go there everyday except I still don't have a membership. So if anyone wants to let me join so that I can rave about the latest Louboutins or the newest Marni dress or YSL bag PLEASE CONTACT ME! Anyway just had to let that out.



Worked on a film last weekend, and I'm shooting an experimental this weekend about a friend who got a gf and decided to drop me like I was nothing after 10 years of friendship. Here is the voice over I'll be putting on it, with some fixes here and there I'm sure:

...We'll go on...

It was hate it was love
it tore me a hole
and that space is now empty
with nothing to fill it
he was beauty he was pain
a magnificent masterpiece of sound
The smiles that were warm, lame high fives,
and piggy back rides
He was my rock and with him I could roll
with the punches as they took their toll
he always held me up
never give up don't quit
he'd have none of it
So he's gone and I'm stuck in this
unfriendly rut and I've pulled and
I've scratched to climb out from
this abyss
but that strength was all his
until now I can see that the power
comes from me and though
i'll miss all his glances
and the hope for second chances
i've become serene in the thought
that it was all for naught, but i'll
never forget the best friend that i miss everyday
but tomorrow is there and i'm ready for it.
so long and good bye it was worth every minute

E.

BRM 560

hate slow drivers in the fast lane...if you know you can't pass the person to the right of you get out of my way!

chicken ,broccoli, and wedges: heavenly paradise.

i've come to the realization that i'm about to have a serious love affair with diet dr. pepper. being a self proclaimed addict of its sugary version, i've found it's good, if not better, than the original. mmm yum yum. so the weekends around the corner and i can't even comprehend what it will bring (well except for the pow wow my mom and i are attending at mystic lake).

nothing is set in stone. but whatever it is i hope its brings gifts of alcohol and hot guys...though i doubt the hot boys. lately nothing around besides guys trying to look cuter in their girl jeans than i do: NOT OK. we females have to keep the hotness on that end of things, to ourselves...

that wake up holy crap feeling

have you ever woken up and been like: holy shit how the hell have i made it this far?" it's scary to think there haven't been any books or how to guides that really worked with every situation you came across. even though parents were always there to tell you "i've been there" and "i was young once too," when all you can think is "yeah uh huh a century ago when there wasn't even internet." i mean look how far the world has come. when i was nine the original mario came out and now i'm barely 23 and we have ps3 and the wii and people are virtual bowling with little animated characters. i mean HUH???!?! so if that is just the virtual side of life, how are we supposed to merge the very real here and now love, relationships, frienship side of life? things are a lot different. people are falling in love on the internet, speed dating is considered almost normal, and the lonely single people have no freaking idea of how to get a date. i'm stuck too. 23 and in major dislike of being hit on. i'm one of those simple girls that likes to get to know someone without the pressure of a date, the second pressure appears i hightail it for the horizon, its some serious mental dysfunction that i wish i could erase, but i'm sure is impossible. so now i'm on a search for that perfect man, preferrably one with tattoos and a lip piercing, which never happens because the idea of a black rocker chick is pretty much lost on men. i always feel pressured to be booty dancing in some rap video instead moshin' out at some great killswitch show. aahhh the pressures of stereotype and love why does it have to be there and will this girl ever find love or will she just wallow in corners on her own wishing she could be part of the fun. hopefully i will be the fun, but now its time to let go of some of the past, of the people who've wronged me, made me feel uncomfortable, or are just plain toxic to my happiness. now's the time to be a bit selfish and free. oh yeah and a bit crazy ;-p



E.